I don’t believe in having just one soulmate – that’s just a romantic concept that basically wants to make you believe that you are only happy with that one and only person. And that you are not whole without that beloved one. But it can still be painful when you have to say goodbye to that person. Even if it was announced some time before.

This Light

When my soulmate became part of my family, my whole family adored her. And if unknown people met us, you could often tell that they were wondering: so who are they? I guess being together created this light that affected people in a way. And it reflected on the both of us. Like she would shine even more – simply because she shone even without me. And just to give you a random example, I remember how some girl at a festival stole a quick kiss on the lips from me, right after her reading the flyer of my novel, when I had given it to her. I guess even with my girlfriend at a 10 meter distance (since she was hanging somewhere else with some other people we had met at the festival, while I was handing out some flyers), this girl must have felt the magic that I was feeling with my soulmate. And I can think of more examples.

Took Her for Granted

To be honest, most of my time I took her for granted. I mean, I appreciated my soulmate highly and I found her special, but I thought it was perfectly normal that she was there, by my side. Every single day. But it was not – so I realized later. The idea that your soulmate and you (as a couple) would last a life time, simply because you are each other’s soulmate, doesn’t count for everyone – it depends on the lessons you and your soulmate want to experience in this life. At least that’s what I believe.

A bit Strange

After many years we broke up, and we decided to stay friends. In fact, we were still close: we had dinners together, we watched So You Think You Can Dance together, and we still kissed each other on the lips (especially in the beginning). Thing was: I wanted to stay close to her, I just didn’t want to be her boyfriend anymore – and she felt the same way. Of course, it was a bit strange, and some of her girlfriends were worried and thinking: were they doing the right thing? Could they ever move on with their own lives? Well, I guess it was already written in the stars, in our Soul contracts, as soulmates.

Session

Back then I was already doing energy readings every now and then. And my soulmate was even more impressed by the things I could do, the information I would get, than I was myself. Looking back at it: I downplayed my skills/readings a bit – I guess I didn’t feel confident enough yet. So one day my soulmate asked me if I could do a session for her, since something was disturbing her. And of course did I do the session for her, I didn’t even have to think about that – she was dear to me, even after the official breakup.

But I wasn’t expecting this particular thing coming up. Apart from the info I got about her specific question, her Soul – or energy field – also wanted to share something with me: she loved me dearly, but she wanted to move on with her life. She needed to go into a different direction. And needless to say: I was shocked, since I didn’t want to lose her as a close friend – or should I say: as my incarnated soulmate?

She Needed to Talk

I told her the things that she wanted to know, and she was happy with the info I gave to her. But I never told her that second part. Maybe I thought it would blow over, maybe I just didn’t want to believe it. And we stayed friends like we used to be; going to the movies, having drinks at places, and so on. But after a year or so we did break up – as close friends – and this time for real. Thing was: in the meantime she had already got a new boyfriend in her life (mainly the earthly reason why she needed to break up as friends), and one day she texted me that she needed to talk to me – over the phone. And I already knew what she was going to tell. We both cried on the phone, and told each other how much we loved each other. But our friendship needed to end, so she told me. And even though it’s an illusion to believe that you are not whole without your soulmate, it felt empty as hell for a while. Guess you can’t deny the things that someone’s Soul really wants to share with you, especially when that beloved person is your soulmate.