Sometimes I find it a bit weird myself, when I see these images in front of me. I am in a meditative state, but people are talking to me – about very relevant and sometimes unrevealed things – like they are actually standing in front of me. And no, I don’t need any pills or mind-alternating substances. Then again, I do have some interesting stories to share about these substances.

Completely Natural

I was never a fan of any type of drugs, until I met my ex-girlfriend. She was familiar with XTC/MDMA, and she asked if I was up for it – to use it on a night out. But I didn’t like the idea, because I was afraid to lose ‘some kind of control’. And apart from that: the chemical stuff seems to have a negative impact on your brains, especially on your long-term memory. So she tried to ‘seduce’ me with an alternative: ‘smart drugs’, because they were completely natural, way less toxic. And very legal.

Liquid XTC

So she convinced me, and I started to use some fun, natural stuff: liquid X – like XTC, but with no hangovers the next morning, because they were not chemical. And I had to admit: I didn’t feel wasted the next morning, nor did I have any headaches. They gave me the experience of XTC – according to my ex it was practically the same effect as ‘the real deal’ – but I wouldn’t have any negative side effects.

In fact, I will never forget celebrating New Year’s Eve with my ex and her brother. Maybe it was a bit much, but after using this stuff – they were also for sale as pills, by the way – I found myself on the dance floor with them, while both she and I were declaring our deepest love to him; her brother, my brother-in-law. I always got along really well with him, but even in the moment I realized that my heart was expressing way more love to him than I normally would. So afterwards it made me wonder: did the stuff exaggerate my feelings, or did it just open up my heart even more?

The Real World

Heading into that direction: some people say that some mind-alternating substances don’t play with reality – it’s not just a ‘tripping effect’ – but these substances would actually help you to show you ‘the real world’; the actual world behind the illusionary curtains of our mundane reality. And I am not here to convince you of thinking one way or the other, but it does remind me of another funny anecdote.

When my ex-girlfriend was living her life before being with me, she liked the experience that XTC/MDMA would give to her – as mentioned before. And one day, according to her, she had been taking an XTC pill, together with a good friend of hers. They were walking outside, and at some point – passing a basketball court – she noticed a unicorn on the actual court.

One would say: she was just tripping, seeing illusionary things. But the interesting thing was, that her friend saw a unicorn on the basketball court as well. At the same time. Surreal, right? I mean, one might see unicorns outside, while flowing on the effects of XTC, but having someone else seeing the same thing? Not likely at all.

Music Industry

Anyways, what about the weirdness of seeing people in front of you – in a meditation – who are telling relevant and sometimes unrevealed things? Withoút the use of any pills, remember? Well, all these former anecdotes were triggered in my mind by a memory – an experience I once had when I did a reading for someone.

For reasons of anonimity I will not tell much about this person. But she felt sensitive, was working in the music industry, and she asked for my help. In general it can be a stressing industry, I suppose, and during the reading – being in my usual meditative state – I suddenly felt this severe tension in my head, like a migraine. Some pressure on my eyes as well, and something blocked in my head in general.

I got the idea that she had trouble with sleeping, and I will never forget this very realistic picture in front of me: she moved her closed hand to my face, opened it, and there I saw some pills lying in her hand – I figured some sleeping pills or tranquilizers. And she entrusted me, in my meditation, the following words: “I should quit these things.”

Close-up

It was like a scene from a movie, where the actress would take her hand filled with pills to the camera – ending with a close-up. So clear and vivid. But I was just in my room, with my eyes closed. And the actual person was thousands of miles away. 

After the session she told me that “the things her Soul told me about, were right”, and she really needed to prioritize more rest in her life, otherwise she would need to face the consequences – any time soon.

I really hope she is doing fine right now, that she found some peace and relief – which she just confirmed by the way, when I contacted her because of this blog. And I may not have seen real unicorns in my life, but these readings – these moving experiences – might get me the closest to them as I possibly can get.